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Diaper Changes

My daughter hates diaper changes. Especially when she’s hungry. If it were up to her, she’d happily sit in her mess, suckling milk until the waste burned holes on her bottom. Even then—blistered and bleeding—she’d be contentedly milk-drunk, filled up with the one thing she’d wanted in this world. But that wouldn’t be good for […]

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How Much Do You Really Want Me?

“Can we go to daily Mass every day this week?” The question floated sweetly to my ears on a whisper from my oldest child’s lips. I glanced down at her face, radiating with innocent joy, as she looked up at me, hopeful that I might say yes. At that time, we were going through a […]

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I See You

One of my greatest joys is cheering for my kids when they do something amazing. Amazing being a relative word, of course. It could be writing a lower case ‘g’ in the lines properly. Or swinging from the monkey bars. Or hopping around the room on one leg. Amazing can quite literally mean anything. Just […]

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My Mini-Me

It’s been exactly one year since I first saw my face on someone else. Witnessed the curve of my smile on another person’s lips. From the beginning, I could easily spot her and claim her as my own. And throughout the 365 days that have passed, the similarities have only grown stronger. The girl with […]

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The Power of Forgiveness

Motherhood has a strange way of creating monsters. Sometimes out of my children. Mostly out of me. It burns the wick of impatience until self-combustion occurs, taking with it the casualties of the young and innocent. Later in the evening, I’ll confide in my husband, retelling all the terrible ways I failed as a mother. […]

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Dear Future Mothers

Dear Future Mothers, Years ago, before I knew the pains of labor or the curve of my daughter’s nose, I thought I knew what motherhood was. Motherhood was a life of constant giggles, squeals, snuggles, and cuddles. It was a vocation where tiny toddlers looked up at you with adoring eyes, absorbing everything because they […]

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Hey Mama

After a Saturday morning meeting with my writing group and an afternoon interview for a magazine article, I strolled back home where my husband and daughter awaited. “I don’t know how you do it,” my husband said, motioning to the squawking infant at his feet.  “I literally don’t know you do this all day every […]

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Look Ma, No Hands!

When I was in high school, my good friends nicknamed me Stubs.  My hands are so small, I was nervous my daughter’s would be bigger at birth.  Thanks to my chubby paws, it is difficult to do most tasks that require dexterity.  Buttons are my worst enemy.  Not to mention how tricky household chores can […]

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Childbirth Through the Eyes of a Soon-to-be-Mom

“I am never going to have kids!” I declared decisively.  I had been awakened to the gruesome torture of childbirth that day in my middle school health class.  I watched as a small creature slowly stretched its way from a woman’s most sensitive area.  Then as the doctor yanked the being from the dark prison, […]

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Mom & Me

Before I knew of the life inside my womb, the Maker was already prepping my life for an insane God-sized dream.  When I discovered the 5-week-old embryo growing inside me and rebelled against it, God didn’t waver.  “I am going to be a mother?” I said absently to myself.  Then I counted all the ways […]

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